Through Her Eyes

Dear Tess, While I've had many teachers throughout my life, none have brought as much meaning to my life as you have. Even though you aren't technically one of my teachers, you still manage to give me a life lesson every now and then, and for that, I'll always be grateful. You've taught me what it means to be a Christian. You're the one. The one who brought me back to my faith. The one who was persistent and showed compassion on me, even if I didn't deserve it. The one who made me step back and realize what a woman who loves God looks like. And I wanted to be just like you. Reaching out to me after the whirlwind year I went through, I didn't think much of your invitation. No way could I face God after what he put me through, but you showed and taught me what a loving God he is. He always has a purpose and will never leave one of his children in a time of need.  You've taught me what a woman is. I'm in such awe of you. The way you carr...

Dear Younger Me, There are so many things I wish I could tell you. So many secrets to life to whisper in your ears. So many bad memories to protect you from to try and keep your innocence just a little while longer. I look back and wonder where I lost you and when I became wrapped up in this mess called life. Some of my fondest memories come from you. From sneaking out of the house on the farm with the sole intent on crawling up into the the hay loft to spend endless hours with the kittens, to crawling under the cow fence to run through the meadow and be free. Life can be a tricky thing sometimes, but remembering these memories makes it a little easier to get through the hard days. Sometimes I think if I could go back in time and tell you what I've learned along the way, maybe I could spare you a heartbreak or two, and save you from growing up too early.  Yet the days without you inside me, it hurts just a little more. No longer do I sit down at the piano playing for hours ...

Dear future husband,  I'm waiting anxiously for the day that you become all mine to love and cherish till the end of this life and into the next. To come home to a home that's all ours with little loves running through the halls. To create a life with you that we'll one day look back on and smile, remembering all of the amazing memories we created and shared together. I'm praying for you. I pray that you're a God-fearing man who loves and respects the woman who should be the most important woman in your life, your mama, so that one day, you'll set an example for our son, so he knows how a woman is to be respected and treasured, and our daughter, so she knows what real love looks like and never settles for anything less.  I pray that you're valuing your education right now, and that you'll continue to put time and effort into your studies. Knowledge is and always will be power and the key to your success.  I'm praying for myself. I pray ...

2016 has been one for the books. And it's just getting started. These past four months have taken me on a roller coaster of emotional situations. Most have knocked me off my feet, leaving me barely hanging on. But I'm a fighter, and I can't and won't throw in the towel just because I've had a rough time lately. Sure, my life hasn't gone at all the way I've wanted it too, but these experiences have made me a stronger woman. They made me see the good in more things, but they have also helped me not be as blind to the bad in life either. But I'm not perfect. Some days I do just want to give up and sleep the whole day away. Some days I'm so fed up, the only appropriate solution in my mind, is to swear at literally everything. Other days I eat so much, I end up usually feeling worse than before. But.. I've come to realize that it's  okay . ​ ​ It's Okay Not To Have A Boyfriend ​ If there is one thing that my past, 11 month relationship has ...