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Learning To Appreciate The Storm

Recently, I heard someone talking about the trials and hardships that they have been facing in their life. I perked up, eager to listen and hoping I could relate to their struggles, and learn how they managed to get through those hard times. But what that person said is not at all what I was expecting. See, that person didn't hold the magic answer to how to make all your problems go away, in fact that person still struggled with the same problems years later. But what that person had was Jesus. Jesus is the magic answer to all of life's difficulties, but he doesn't take your problems away, he just makes it easier while you go through those struggles. Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego were thrown into a fiery furnace. God didn't swoop in and instantly put the fire out for them, he protected them in it. When people looked into the fire, they saw not three men, but four. And what a testament that was. Even through the hardest of times, God was still with them, God stil
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Changing Perspectives

What if, at the end of the day, we focus on what's holding us together,  rather than what's tearing us apart? Do you ever feel like you're just barely holding on?  ...like life couldn't possible get any worse?  Do you feel like you're running in circles in your relationship and you don't know why? ...like you're constantly fighting about the same things, and nothing ever gets better? What would happen if you decided to just take a step back for a second and remember? Really look into her eyes and see the beauty that is your girl.  Remember why you fell for her in the first place.  Remember the laugh that only happens when you're around.  Remember the late night talks spent getting to know one another all those years ago.  Remember all those little things about her. And then learn how to love again. Hold her hand. Laugh with her. Hold her softly. Calm all of her fears..gently.  Make her know that she i
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Your New Normal

You didn't ask for this. Any of it. When you saw him for the very first time, walking in through the door, your souls connected. And everyone knows you can't break up with your soulmate. But then you ask yourself why it has to be so hard if you two are meant to be? Nothing about you two was ever normal. When you two first start dating, you knew in a matter of months, you'd be gone. So then maybe you start asking yourself what the point is. But darling, just stop and look and realize. Understand that even though you're 100+ miles away, he still talks about you with this burning passionate love for you that no one else has ever shown you. And just know that he isn't able to do the same things anymore either because you're gone, but he is still forced to drive past and be constantly reminded that you aren't with him. Realize that this separation is only making you two stronger. It's forcing you to continue falling in love with a perso
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A Letter To You, My Love

Dear you, Distance is supposed to make the heart grow fonder right? Distance also tests us, and challenges us, and makes us say and do things we wish we could take back as soon as the words are said. The stubborn, selfish side of me says that my heart grows just as fond of you when I'm living 10 minutes away from you, not 2 hours. I hate being away from you. But the real side of me, the side you fell in love with, the selfless, the kind-hearted, the compassionate woman I am proud to be, knows this distance is going to be so worth it in the end. It's going to force us to put one another first in all circumstances. It's going to test our love, and make us prove how much the other person means to each other. It's going to show us whether or not we're really a priority in our busy lives. Communication and trust are key in making us work. Simple texts throughout the day, a random selfie, a late night unexpected phone call, and so much more become so precious and valu
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Homesick

Home has always been the place where you feel you most belong and are accepted. Home can be so many different things to so many different people. But the thing I've come to learn, is that home isn't always a place. Home can be a thing you love, a certain scent or feeling, or a person you can't live without. I've become homesick for a place I'm not even sure exists even more, a place where I'm at peace and loved by him without a worry in the world. My home became him. And I worry that I will never completely be at home again, because my heart is constantly elsewhere. But, maybe that's the price you pay for allowing someone in. Then, all of a sudden you're in a place you're supposed to enjoy and fall in love with, but all you can think about is being home and how you're not there. You became my home because I left my heart with you while I was gone, knowing you would still be there with it when I got back. I miss you. I mi
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The End Of The Beginning

Life has a way of sneaking up on you. One minute you're a little kid running around the playground without a care in the world. Then, you're a middle schooler who has just discovered black eye liner. But then suddenly, you become an adult and you're wrapping up four years of high school. And you realize that in the blink of an eye, you're not a kid anymore, and you're heading out into the real world to try and make it on your own. You're torn. You want to be happy because of everything you accomplished to get you across the graduation stage. But, you're also sad, because you feel as though you didn't get a chance to do everything you wanted and you want a second chance, a do over. But hear me when I say this: It isn't the end, it's only the beginning. You will have more chances to do what you wanted with who you wanted. You'll have an entire lifetime to love on whomever you want, and there will come a time when it an be wh
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Why It Makes It So Hard

Anxiety is the beginning stages of relationships. You struggle normally because you always seem to ruin something before it begins. It's staying up at night and tossing and turning because you wonder how someone feels. It's questioning if this is really something or if it is all in your head. Anxiety is being excited about a date but thinking they're going to cancel last minute. It's staring at your phone waiting for it to happen. It's every past relationship on repeat and hoping this one doesn't end the same way. It's an ending that emotionally destroys you. It's trying to handle it with grace and dignity but at the same time, you're in tears wondering when things changed, and where you went wrong. Anxiety tells you, "no, it's not that they were the wrong person, it's that you're flawed and not good enough." And you look at yourself, fixating on things you wish you could change because that's probably why it
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